You know what i haven’t done lately?

I haven’t expressed myself in poetry, nor have my feeling over powered me enough to lean me towards strong emotions. I feel like perhaps i need to get hurt again hahaha

I need to be hurt again, to feel something. I don’t feel anything again.

It’s one of those nights darkness washes over your heart, and being lonely becomes confronting. I don’t like this feeling, makes me feel human.

somethingfortheladies:

Loz Contreras - “Break You Down (feat. Sanna Hartfield)”

From the coffeeshop in Little Italy, Manhattan where I am sat, I can see through the windows the crowds of people walking past. I love the way that people in the city are dressed; it looks effortless, but the rest of us know that they’ve spent hours in stores picking out clothes that fit right and time in the morning fixing their jackets so that they look like they were thrown haphazardly over their shoulders. I laugh to myself hearing the snippets of conversation from a woman who is showing around her friend from out of town (“Have you ever been to China? It’s exactly like the streets of Beijing”). I even find the tourists charming; they take so many photos of things because they find them mismatched. When I moved to Chicago, I remember feeling the same way in my poorly tailored pants looking up at the pink buildings right next to the green ones. No one in Plano would have ever let their uniform units diverge so outrageously from the others. I’m grateful for where I grew up, but there’s something undeniable about the way this place feels that makes me never want to go back.

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I masked myself with a false termagant persona, one which did not portray who I really was. Afraid of being hurt, I became the person who hurt me, maybe even worse.

I care, truly I do. I read through some basic Buddhist teachings today, remembered how much of a happy person I was before all my emotions started unraveling, I had a cluster of emotions steaming out in different directions.

There is no need to convince someone you’re made of solid steal, surrounded by a self conducted sheath of flame that’s unbreakable, untamable.


Unfortunately it takes time, courage, termination to break through bad habit.
I’m willing to head back into the path of righteousness again.

lightningcollective:

JAPANDROIDS | The House That Heaven Built

Everyone - Japandroids just released a new song for their new album.

This is fucking raw with the simple punk feel. Very well might be my favorite so far (just because it’s NEW).

“I Quit Girls” is still among my favorite by Japandroids. The whole progression and how it just builds up, asdofhlnwaef etc. Check it out here.

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darksilenceinsuburbia:

Alberto Vazquez. Insomnia, 2010. Watercolor, 24 x 27 cm.

somethingfortheladies:

Needle – “Sunsets”

Needle’s EP Saint Timothy’s was written (and recorded?) in the proximity of a small church in a small town. You get that feeling a lot from the sound, something very quiet and intimate but also at the same time fairly spacious. Imagine it like Beach House is performing a headline show in the library of Versailles. I like it—I’ve been running low on cool-down music, a much-needed fuel for my livelihood that my fast-paced hyper-influential media mogul lifestyle seems to devour constantly these days.

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somethingfortheladies:

s / s / s - “Museum Day”

Sufjan Stevens, Son Lux, and Serengeti have teamed up to form, well, s / s / s. Please don’t ask me how to pronounce that. Anyway, this bizarre track is straight off of their upcoming EP. I’m thoroughly intrigued, for the these three musicians with very different sensibilities seem to have forged beauty from utter chaos. Beak & Claw drops March 20th. Keep your ears and your mind wide open.

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somethingfortheladies:

Perfume Genius - “Dark Parts”

This song is about my mom. I was worried about showing her, but she cried through the whole thing. I wanted to take something from her life that wasn’t happy, and turn it in to something triumphant, to remind her how strong and beautiful and loved and important she is. She doesn’t like the last line and says that her dark parts belong to her alone.

Mike Hadreas tells it better than I do because all I can because 1) he wrote it, and 2) all I can manage right now is to tell you how emotional his music makes me.

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